Remembering Day 1

I was reading old blog posts tonight, and in one of my posts there was a song clip. As I played the song instantly memories of when I first started my blog came flooding back.

The weather was warming up, and the smells of summer surrounded me.

I lived in the pink painted basement of my mothers basement.

My life was literally starting over (well okay… not completely starting over of course but sometimes I get dramatic) Big changes (good and bad) were happening, and I was ready for a fresh start and I was determined to create greatness for myself.

I picked up my laptop, and started writing whatever was on my mind. Sharing my story with whoever cared to read it.

Shortly I began to recognize what was happening. I wasn’t just sharing silly posts, or posting an inspiring quote. I was giving myself the courage to change myself. Blogging helped clear my head, and it gave me an outlet to really figure out who I was and who I wanted to be. I would turn music on, make myself comfortable on my oversized bed, and word by word I would release the jumbeled thoughts inside of my head onto my virtual paper.

With each post I felt the stress I had caused myself lift off my shoulders, I had a more positive attitude, I felt direction, and I was happy.

My first blog post was on May 8th, 2011, I cannot believe that was almost 3 years ago! At that time I was just coming off of the end of a long relationship, I moved back into my mothers house, had just started a new job, and I was ready to make some big changes.

To even sum up all that has happened in the last 3 years would take forever. For a quick recap though I now am still happily (for the most part) single, I live in a 2 bedroom duplex by myself with 4 little fur-babies, I am still at the same job (plus I began working at a 2nd job), and most importantly I’ve shown myself if I want something I can get it, I am worth it, and I will make it happen.

I need to be here again I think, there’s some things I’ve lost sight of and other things that need to change. I’m not going to go in detail tonight but it will all unravel again like it did before. In the past I always tried to force myself back to blogging, which I’ve learned I can’t do. When I’m at a place where I need it, then I’ll bring myself back and as it seems here I am.

Finally Inspiration!

“To often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” – Leo Buscaglia.”

I have been struggling for a long time trying to find inspiration to write here again. I’ve been wanting too, but every time I would log on I would be at a loss for words or ideas. Finally though I feel I have found my inspiration.

I spent a good portion of my evening tonight watching YouTube videos of inspiring and uplifting messages/stories. SoulPancake makes amazing videos that I encourage you to check out.  One of their more popular videos would be their Kid President one, and recently they did a documentary about Zach Sobiech (which is quite possibly the most beautiful story I’ve ever seen, and  if you haven’t seen it yet make sure you do). Sadly Zach lost his battle with cancer today, but he’s left behind a legacy that will be remembered forever.

People like Zach, and those who run the Soul Pancake channel give me hope in humanity. Daily we are reminded of how awful people can be, and how easy it is to take everything we have for granted. It’s rare that we see acts of kindness,  compassion, and bravery.

As often as I try to be a better person each day, and try to make a difference in other peoples life sometimes life get’s busy and I forget to go above and beyond for others, or I let small petty problems seem like a bigger deal than what they really are. I mean I don’t become a mean person, and I don’t stop caring about others but I don’t do as much as I would like to.

I know this has been done a lot, but really acts of kindness can never be done too often so I am creating a “challenge” for myself. For the next thirty days I want to perform at least 1 act of kindness (above and beyond the standard kindness we should be treating everyone with daily already) for someone each day.

I plan to blog about this throughout the month, maybe not everyday but I’ll check in often enough. I want to help show others how easy it can be to make a difference in someones day and I want to document my experience through this so that maybe the next time I let life become busy and I am finding myself taking things for granted or forgetting to stop and appreciate my surroundings I will be reminded to slow down a little bit and experience each moment as it is right now.

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Unrelated note:

I also really liked the First Date video on SoulPancake’s channel. It really reminded me of myself. I’ve always been the girl to wear her heart on her sleeve and I probably say too much when there’s someone I like, but in the end at least I always know I’m being honest and if my honesty scares them off it probably would have never work out anyways. At least I’m staying true to myself!

Anyways I’m really excited to have found inspiration to blog again, and for this challenge I’ve created for myself.

Talk to you all soon

XOXO

Kayla

Pop, Lock, and Drop It

I was reading random blogs about random stuff .. random right? Anyways there was one that talked about resolutions and talked mostly about the ever so common resolution: losing weight/getting healthy/exercising … you know THAT one.

I wonder how many people actually make that resolution each year? It’s a GREAT goal, resolution, plan (whatever you want to call it) but sadly not many people keep with it. I’ll admit I’ve made that goal, and have failed at it countess times. I’m human, it’s cool .. one of these days I’ll get it!

So within all these blogs there was a lot of pictures, with inspiring quotes to make you want to get up and start running or to go eat an apple.  Most of them though are so overused though that they are as effective as a big mac.  Then I saw it .. all shiny, bright, and glowing (okay okay it’s really not that epic) but it was more real to me then any of the other “It will be hard, but it will be worth it” quotes I read. Okay are you ready for it? Dim the lights! Ladies and Gentleman, I give you … The Truth!

You’re in awe, right? I know I know. It’s a shocking truth.. to think you could go to the gym and leave feeling (dare I say it?) Good?? Yep! It’s true! I’m pretty sure I’ve never left the gym going “ugh I really wish I didn’t work out tonight” one time I fractured my toe, and lost my toe nail in result of it and I still left satisfied!

I just need to make myself more accountable, maybe if I set up something on here and promise to be honest. Then if I don’t go to the gym, or I eat something god awfully delish but full of calories I could make you all promise to say horrible things to me or come throw a rock at me? That may be a little drastic but I’ll play around with some ideas.

If you have any ideas on how to keep myself more accountable you should comment below and let me know!

XOXO Kayla

2012

I hate “resolutions” I think calling something a resolution automatically sets it up for failure. Besides I make goals all year-long, not just on January 1st. It is however impossible to not think about new goals, or dreams you want to achieve when everyone else is running around talking about it,

So for this year, I have a few things in mind I want to continue to achieve, and a few things I’d like to begin.

  • I want to start volunteering. Where is yet to be determined but I’ve thought a lot about it lately and I really want to give back. I am so fortunate in so many ways that I’d love to help others, even if it’s just a small factor in their lives.
  • I want to continue to push myself to try new things, and to force myself to try things I’d normally refuse.
  • I want to continue (well more so get back on track) my healthy lifestyle.
  • I want to embrace my inner girlishness (more so than I already do) .. This one is sort of selfish, and fun. Being girly makes me feel relaxed and happy. Shopping, Accessorizing, Massages, Facials, Baths, and Crafts. It’s my personal R&R and I want to continue to embracing it as a gift to myself.
  • I want to spend more time with my family.
  • I want to go to more concerts/shows.
  • I want to read more.

I could probably continue thinking and come up with a list of a million goals I want to achieve, but mostly I just want to keep being me. I want to make mistakes, so  can learn from them, I want to inspire people, and be inspired. I want to laugh, live, and love.

I will make this year better than any other year (might as well it might be our last :p)

Happy 2012 Everyone!

xoxo Kayla