Remembering Day 1

I was reading old blog posts tonight, and in one of my posts there was a song clip. As I played the song instantly memories of when I first started my blog came flooding back.

The weather was warming up, and the smells of summer surrounded me.

I lived in the pink painted basement of my mothers basement.

My life was literally starting over (well okay… not completely starting over of course but sometimes I get dramatic) Big changes (good and bad) were happening, and I was ready for a fresh start and I was determined to create greatness for myself.

I picked up my laptop, and started writing whatever was on my mind. Sharing my story with whoever cared to read it.

Shortly I began to recognize what was happening. I wasn’t just sharing silly posts, or posting an inspiring quote. I was giving myself the courage to change myself. Blogging helped clear my head, and it gave me an outlet to really figure out who I was and who I wanted to be. I would turn music on, make myself comfortable on my oversized bed, and word by word I would release the jumbeled thoughts inside of my head onto my virtual paper.

With each post I felt the stress I had caused myself lift off my shoulders, I had a more positive attitude, I felt direction, and I was happy.

My first blog post was on May 8th, 2011, I cannot believe that was almost 3 years ago! At that time I was just coming off of the end of a long relationship, I moved back into my mothers house, had just started a new job, and I was ready to make some big changes.

To even sum up all that has happened in the last 3 years would take forever. For a quick recap though I now am still happily (for the most part) single, I live in a 2 bedroom duplex by myself with 4 little fur-babies, I am still at the same job (plus I began working at a 2nd job), and most importantly I’ve shown myself if I want something I can get it, I am worth it, and I will make it happen.

I need to be here again I think, there’s some things I’ve lost sight of and other things that need to change. I’m not going to go in detail tonight but it will all unravel again like it did before. In the past I always tried to force myself back to blogging, which I’ve learned I can’t do. When I’m at a place where I need it, then I’ll bring myself back and as it seems here I am.

Pop, Lock, and Drop It

I was reading random blogs about random stuff .. random right? Anyways there was one that talked about resolutions and talked mostly about the ever so common resolution: losing weight/getting healthy/exercising … you know THAT one.

I wonder how many people actually make that resolution each year? It’s a GREAT goal, resolution, plan (whatever you want to call it) but sadly not many people keep with it. I’ll admit I’ve made that goal, and have failed at it countess times. I’m human, it’s cool .. one of these days I’ll get it!

So within all these blogs there was a lot of pictures, with inspiring quotes to make you want to get up and start running or to go eat an apple.  Most of them though are so overused though that they are as effective as a big mac.  Then I saw it .. all shiny, bright, and glowing (okay okay it’s really not that epic) but it was more real to me then any of the other “It will be hard, but it will be worth it” quotes I read. Okay are you ready for it? Dim the lights! Ladies and Gentleman, I give you … The Truth!

You’re in awe, right? I know I know. It’s a shocking truth.. to think you could go to the gym and leave feeling (dare I say it?) Good?? Yep! It’s true! I’m pretty sure I’ve never left the gym going “ugh I really wish I didn’t work out tonight” one time I fractured my toe, and lost my toe nail in result of it and I still left satisfied!

I just need to make myself more accountable, maybe if I set up something on here and promise to be honest. Then if I don’t go to the gym, or I eat something god awfully delish but full of calories I could make you all promise to say horrible things to me or come throw a rock at me? That may be a little drastic but I’ll play around with some ideas.

If you have any ideas on how to keep myself more accountable you should comment below and let me know!

XOXO Kayla

2012

I hate “resolutions” I think calling something a resolution automatically sets it up for failure. Besides I make goals all year-long, not just on January 1st. It is however impossible to not think about new goals, or dreams you want to achieve when everyone else is running around talking about it,

So for this year, I have a few things in mind I want to continue to achieve, and a few things I’d like to begin.

  • I want to start volunteering. Where is yet to be determined but I’ve thought a lot about it lately and I really want to give back. I am so fortunate in so many ways that I’d love to help others, even if it’s just a small factor in their lives.
  • I want to continue to push myself to try new things, and to force myself to try things I’d normally refuse.
  • I want to continue (well more so get back on track) my healthy lifestyle.
  • I want to embrace my inner girlishness (more so than I already do) .. This one is sort of selfish, and fun. Being girly makes me feel relaxed and happy. Shopping, Accessorizing, Massages, Facials, Baths, and Crafts. It’s my personal R&R and I want to continue to embracing it as a gift to myself.
  • I want to spend more time with my family.
  • I want to go to more concerts/shows.
  • I want to read more.

I could probably continue thinking and come up with a list of a million goals I want to achieve, but mostly I just want to keep being me. I want to make mistakes, so  can learn from them, I want to inspire people, and be inspired. I want to laugh, live, and love.

I will make this year better than any other year (might as well it might be our last :p)

Happy 2012 Everyone!

xoxo Kayla

2011 Recap

 

I was adventuring around the interweb tonight, reading random blogs and all that wonderful stuff when I realized a common theme. A lot of bloggers have been answering questions about the past year so that they can reflect on what they have overcome, what they have accomplished, and what they maybe didn’t accomplish. Then they answered another set of questions about the upcoming year. What they want to accomplish, their goals and need I say it “resolutions” (I don’t fully believe in resolutions but I’ll explain that later).

All this got me thinking about my past year, and how different my life is today, compared to one year ago. I don’t want to answer the list of questions I read because honestly for most of the questions I thought about what my answers would be and most of them would have been the generic typical answers. I do however want to take a few moments to reflect on 2011.

2011 tested me in so many different ways, which I am really thankful for. I’ve learned so much about myself this year. I put myself in a rather low place  in 2010/2011. I didn’t have much going on (I wasn’t in school, I didn’t work, and I spent my days doing a lot of nothing), I was dealing with a relationship roller coaster, and most of all I wasn’t proud of anything I was doing. Then I decided enough is enough, and I made myself fix things.

Throughout the year I accomplished things I’ve never done before, I’ve become so much more independent, I’ve developed a new confidence in myself, and I’ve learned that my life can be anything I want it to be but I will be the only one to make it happen. I can honestly say now that I’m proud of myself, who I am, where I am, and where I want to be. I don’t have it all figured out yet, but I have faith in myself that I will continue to make my life amazing.

I would have never gotten through all the obstacles without my amazing friends and family. I have a great support system (which I have mentioned over and over throughout my blog but it’s so true). You can’t really ever fall completely if you have people like them holding you up :) I love you all!

Adios 2011 .. I more than excited for 2012!

I was going through reading old blog entries of mine, and thought “I miss this” so guess what!? I’m back! Okay okay .. you can all stop applauding now, I know you missed me (please understand from this point on that I’m sarcastic 99.9% of the time). Just like before .. I do this more for me,  Writing helps me find direction in what I want to do. It makes me feel good, and I like sharing things I find with others.

If anything I ever post helps anyone who’s reading then that’s just a bonus =D

For real though .. if you read my blog then Thank You! It’s cool to know others like what you have to say. I’ll share some skittles with you or something :)

Woo Hoo! Feels good to be back. Let’s all do the hokey pokey.

https://makebelievetillnothingsreal.wordpress.com/2012/01/03/294/

 

Something I believe in so strongly but I forget so often! A while back I posted an idea about taking quotes and putting them on a poster. I plan on making that soon and this will Definitely be on it!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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There aren’t enough days in the weekend.

Lazy Sunday nights are my favorite.

Except today sucked for the most part, my fault- had a little too much to drink last night. So I have spend the whole day hung over. I did get to see my family though, and thankfully the really bad hangover came after brunch so I was actually able to enjoy the time with them. Today is my mom’s birthday :) Happy Birthday Mom! We took her to brunch this morning (we as in myself, my brother, sister in-law, and my two nieces).  After brunch I’ve literally been in bed all day. Besides when I had to take my moms car to get a car wash … someone got sick in her car. Not sure who…. jerks ;)

Last week all my motivation for .. anything disappeared.  I just had a “I want to be lazy and do nothing” mindset. I mostly blame the fact that I was just tired all week long, my schedule was thrown around a bit. I still did some fun things though, and luckily my motivation has returned :)

On Tuesday Kayla and I went to Kid Cudi. We had an amazing time! I liked Kid Cudi before we went, but I really didn’t know a lot of his songs. A week before the concert I listened to a lot of his stuff to become more familiar with it. After the concert I LOVE HIM and his music. I don’t love him nearly as much as Kayla does.. that wouldn’t be possible but I am def. a fan!

Thursday we went to Psycho Suzies for a few drinks and dinner. That place is so cute, kind of sucks all of their cool drinks are based off of rum (I don’t like rum) but still a fun a place! You can write on the bathroom stalls with chalk .. what’s not to love.

 

This drink was delicious!

Last night was one of our friends birthday and we had a bon fire plus some outdoor beer pong! As I previously mentioned .. I drank A LOT haha. Definitely did not plan on that but it was a good time. I woke up to some awesome pictures on my phone that I had no clue was on there.

The top right one is this mornings hair do. Pretty sure I was still drunk when that was taken.

Ahh summer nights, gotta love them!

One week until the Warrior Dash (actually 6 days now!) I am also doing Lifetime’s Torchlight 5k Run on Wednesday. Another busy week!

Now on to Apartment hunting, and continue my addiction to Stumble :) I’m sure I’ll post some findings from Stumble!

Sometime I need to remember this more

 

I have never heard of The Weepies, or there song “Be My Honeypie” but this video is so heart warming and cute.

It kind of reminds me of one of my favorite songs from Bright Eyes “First Day of My Life”

Not sure if I’ve posted that before or not so I will again just in case!

**Update: Turns out I have heard of The Weepies, just never knew it. Definitely a fan**

Lettuce Wraps

Lettuce Wraps:
These turned out really good! I kind of just did my own thing, after reading a few recipe’s. They were so tasty, and perfect for lunch or dinner!

One thing, your supposed to wrap these with bibb lettuce. I thought that was the normal head of lettuce you buy. It’s not haha and actual bibb lettuce works much better so make sure you get that!

Ingredients:
You really can use whatever you want. This is what I used.

  • Green Cabbage
  • Red Cabbage
  • Red Pepper
  • Yellow Onion
  • Garlic Cloves (Minced)
  • Carrots
  • Water Chestnuts(I wouldn’t use these next time, they really didn’t add anything)
  • Kikoman’s Low Sodium Teriyaki sauce
  • Skinless/Boneless Chicken Breasts
  • Lettuce (I used a head of lettuce, you should use bibb lettuce)
I pretty much just chopped the vegetables up, and steamed them for a little bit. While they were steaming I cooked the chicken and cut that up. I then added the chicken to the veggies and added 2 tbsp of the teriyaki sauce. I mixed it all together letting the sauce cover everything and voila I was done :)
You then scoop some onto the lettuce, wrap it up and enjoy :D
Delicious and easy!
How much you use of each ingredient is totally up to you, and how much you want or need.