Remembering Day 1

I was reading old blog posts tonight, and in one of my posts there was a song clip. As I played the song instantly memories of when I first started my blog came flooding back.

The weather was warming up, and the smells of summer surrounded me.

I lived in the pink painted basement of my mothers basement.

My life was literally starting over (well okay… not completely starting over of course but sometimes I get dramatic) Big changes (good and bad) were happening, and I was ready for a fresh start and I was determined to create greatness for myself.

I picked up my laptop, and started writing whatever was on my mind. Sharing my story with whoever cared to read it.

Shortly I began to recognize what was happening. I wasn’t just sharing silly posts, or posting an inspiring quote. I was giving myself the courage to change myself. Blogging helped clear my head, and it gave me an outlet to really figure out who I was and who I wanted to be. I would turn music on, make myself comfortable on my oversized bed, and word by word I would release the jumbeled thoughts inside of my head onto my virtual paper.

With each post I felt the stress I had caused myself lift off my shoulders, I had a more positive attitude, I felt direction, and I was happy.

My first blog post was on May 8th, 2011, I cannot believe that was almost 3 years ago! At that time I was just coming off of the end of a long relationship, I moved back into my mothers house, had just started a new job, and I was ready to make some big changes.

To even sum up all that has happened in the last 3 years would take forever. For a quick recap though I now am still happily (for the most part) single, I live in a 2 bedroom duplex by myself with 4 little fur-babies, I am still at the same job (plus I began working at a 2nd job), and most importantly I’ve shown myself if I want something I can get it, I am worth it, and I will make it happen.

I need to be here again I think, there’s some things I’ve lost sight of and other things that need to change. I’m not going to go in detail tonight but it will all unravel again like it did before. In the past I always tried to force myself back to blogging, which I’ve learned I can’t do. When I’m at a place where I need it, then I’ll bring myself back and as it seems here I am.

2012

I hate “resolutions” I think calling something a resolution automatically sets it up for failure. Besides I make goals all year-long, not just on January 1st. It is however impossible to not think about new goals, or dreams you want to achieve when everyone else is running around talking about it,

So for this year, I have a few things in mind I want to continue to achieve, and a few things I’d like to begin.

  • I want to start volunteering. Where is yet to be determined but I’ve thought a lot about it lately and I really want to give back. I am so fortunate in so many ways that I’d love to help others, even if it’s just a small factor in their lives.
  • I want to continue to push myself to try new things, and to force myself to try things I’d normally refuse.
  • I want to continue (well more so get back on track) my healthy lifestyle.
  • I want to embrace my inner girlishness (more so than I already do) .. This one is sort of selfish, and fun. Being girly makes me feel relaxed and happy. Shopping, Accessorizing, Massages, Facials, Baths, and Crafts. It’s my personal R&R and I want to continue to embracing it as a gift to myself.
  • I want to spend more time with my family.
  • I want to go to more concerts/shows.
  • I want to read more.

I could probably continue thinking and come up with a list of a million goals I want to achieve, but mostly I just want to keep being me. I want to make mistakes, so  can learn from them, I want to inspire people, and be inspired. I want to laugh, live, and love.

I will make this year better than any other year (might as well it might be our last :p)

Happy 2012 Everyone!

xoxo Kayla