Remembering Day 1

I was reading old blog posts tonight, and in one of my posts there was a song clip. As I played the song instantly memories of when I first started my blog came flooding back.

The weather was warming up, and the smells of summer surrounded me.

I lived in the pink painted basement of my mothers basement.

My life was literally starting over (well okay… not completely starting over of course but sometimes I get dramatic) Big changes (good and bad) were happening, and I was ready for a fresh start and I was determined to create greatness for myself.

I picked up my laptop, and started writing whatever was on my mind. Sharing my story with whoever cared to read it.

Shortly I began to recognize what was happening. I wasn’t just sharing silly posts, or posting an inspiring quote. I was giving myself the courage to change myself. Blogging helped clear my head, and it gave me an outlet to really figure out who I was and who I wanted to be. I would turn music on, make myself comfortable on my oversized bed, and word by word I would release the jumbeled thoughts inside of my head onto my virtual paper.

With each post I felt the stress I had caused myself lift off my shoulders, I had a more positive attitude, I felt direction, and I was happy.

My first blog post was on May 8th, 2011, I cannot believe that was almost 3 years ago! At that time I was just coming off of the end of a long relationship, I moved back into my mothers house, had just started a new job, and I was ready to make some big changes.

To even sum up all that has happened in the last 3 years would take forever. For a quick recap though I now am still happily (for the most part) single, I live in a 2 bedroom duplex by myself with 4 little fur-babies, I am still at the same job (plus I began working at a 2nd job), and most importantly I’ve shown myself if I want something I can get it, I am worth it, and I will make it happen.

I need to be here again I think, there’s some things I’ve lost sight of and other things that need to change. I’m not going to go in detail tonight but it will all unravel again like it did before. In the past I always tried to force myself back to blogging, which I’ve learned I can’t do. When I’m at a place where I need it, then I’ll bring myself back and as it seems here I am.

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